BUH BYE

IM MOVING. :D Figure out where i am moving too. BYE

Just the way you are (cover)

Heyy guys , another cover. :D

Eye misbehaving

Okay first when I started to have rashes on the joints of my hands and legs doctor say i was allergic to chlorine and sweat. So I stop My aquatics cca and was under medication when I was forced to go for swimming lesson during the sec 1 programme. Compulsory for all so doctor gave me medicine. I hate them but I have no choice. I did not have any more rashes until one fine day...

I ate prawn and rashes starts to pop out from my back and joints. Even worse. :( then doctor say I was allergic to prawns. Even that bit of chilli give me chill already. :( I was sad. This time, I was given a jab and a cream. It was quite a hard time trying to avoid stalls without prawns. Like they use the same utensils to cook the prawn so that's no wonder why my rashes is still on my body up till now.

And when I tried stopping myself from prawn, things was slightly better until when...

I ate sotong, even bigger rashes starts to pop out from my back and my joints. I'm allergic to sotong. It's damn itchy. :(

Then just recently only, I have a lot of bubble looking thing popping out from my left hand. And this time round I was sure I never eat anything ! So the doctor say the rash only appear one side of your body and it's at a specific area. Your left hand. So you are allergic to something you touch. I was like 0-0 again~ so he gave me cream and medicine. Blah blah blah.

And nowwwww , I'm allergic to BLACKIE and brownie's mouth sprayer to keep their mouth fresh. I accidentally face the spray area towards my face instead of their mouth. And splash it's on my eyes. And not it's all oh so swollen. :(

Sorry for being so dragging. But I love it.

Hello-wind.

Met that bad ass boy yesterday and it was actually true enough a very sweet date. :] We went to a mass toy shop and spam all those little toys and stationaries meant for kids. My gosh , i felt so damn young! It was fun though. It's like going back to my kinder garden time. With water gun and bubbles and toy robots everything. We love the moments when we were in the  "toy paradise" . Was actually tempted to buy some of the items though. But he stopped me. :( 

Went to swensen for dessert but it was too sweet to be consumed. The ice-cream was not that fantastic so was a little disappointed. Plus it's expensive. :'( Make me sugar rush somemore. Was a little over high . 

Went all the way to the top of orchard central and we had a little chit chat session there before we head home. Was supposed to wait for amanda but her dance ended a little too late :( So we went home first.

During the train ride, my new date introduce me to a new app called "tiny tower" i downloaded it he taught me how to operate it and WOWLA , i am all addicted to this game now. :] Not really easy to play and a little lame, but it kills time. He played this when he was working! Was a lazy boy. 

OH and meeting at night wasnt fruitful at all today, i actually wasted my trip to school today. Halloween was pushed back to a later time. It might be pushed back till our schoolreopens. Awman , i gotta study you know. How am i gonna cope with halloween still haunting me down?  And committee members are not devoted to this event either. So many of them still did not turn up for today's meeting. Waste my effort typing all that shit for them. But i appreciate Helmi and Varrick for being so consistent. Thanks a hell lot. It meant a lot to me ya. :] 

Okay, i've done my second round of ranting today. Goodnight .

Painful eye

My right eye have been giving me a lot of problems. It hurts and it prevents me from wearing my contacts. 

I learn something new today , i learn how to play pool. It was... so much better than bowling. Thanks to wu婆婆。谢谢你。 :]

And yes i tried making a cover without my moimoi today. My hand is injured thus i cant touched it for awhile. :( I rapped. YES , i R A P P E D. Was quiet satisfied with how i rap, hahahas because it was fluent. But sadly, i will not post it up on youtube. Because the videos was deleted by oh so careless me. :( Waste my effort. But i enjoyed the process.

OH and i tried talking to somebody today and WLAO. She block me from twitter and blogger. Am i sucha ghost to you? I wont eat you up or anything right? I just wanna ask you some questions. And if i got my answer you think i'll still talk to you. =-= Waste my time. Sucha a unfriendly person la. :( If you ever read this, please let me know. It's just a few questions. 

Second thing that i am really unhappy about today is that, I don't feel you at all. Be a little more sensitive boy. 

Lastly , the most disappointing out of all, SU committee always failed to meet up. And now because of it , we all have to push the event backwards. I think that is just sad. I have plans after the 9th. =-= DUHHH. 

OH , i have finish my ranting. 

Fresh new layout

I'll do mass cleaning in my room on thursday.
I wanna make it as plain as my blog.
When i actually feel like typing, i'll blog. :D

No work = Practice more

My holidays started and for the past 2 weeks, i've been wasting my life. 

Okay, other than the baking and SU stuff , i've watching dramas and more dramas.

Come to think about it, i am really wasting my time. :(

SO ...

I've decided to start do things that are more useful and a benefit to me.

X's list:

1. Do english TYS (Composition+Comprehension+Summary)

2. Finish up my elementary mathematics book for my tuition.

3. Do more photoshop tutorial.

4. Do more drawings (improve on my basics)

5. To have 1 sketchbook completed after my holidays.

6. Bake more of course.

7. Read up on typography, learn more about it. 

8. Change my attitude.

9. Complete my twilight saga series.

10. Lose 2more kg.

------- END ------

In order to achieve that, i cannot be lazy. 

Once i'm lazy, i can say kaboom to everything. 

Oh well , Lee Xiao Hui , work harder for my O's!

Love,

X

i miss my past so much

When he is gone, i feel that my life have become so much more different. 

It's like it when to another world of mine that i didn't knew that it exist.

Yes, breaking up may feel painful but, come on life still have to go on, i need oxygen to live, not him.

Is it true?  But sometimes i wonder. Will we ever be back together again?

Or rather, will we be best friends after breaking up? 

To me, best friends is a yes, to him absolutely not. 

It is not easy trying to forget that i no longer have to meet you i no longer have to do certain things.

Like , loving you. 

My hear feels empty man. People asking me " Hey, you okay? " I hate it. 

LIKE HELL DO I LOOK OKAY? 

Oh, dont wanna talk about it anymore. 

Yes i miss my past. My primary school , that damn ugly girl that was me and now, the still even more ugly girl. 17 years , ive seen a lot. I've been through a lot. I seen a lot of people. Walk pass a lot of people. hmmm... I need a time machine...

Mimanchi

Extrodinary

Life is just frustrating. It may comes interesting but it's is really frustrating. 

Firstly, to me time is really very important. No matter is it for studies , family time , love time or whatever time. We HAVE to learn how to organise it well. I'm trying to pick that up. But my body is just trying to do the opposite. But im bloody hell trying my best to do my work , why can't you? At least i wont get distracted by facebook and youtube. I know what is FOCUS. FOCUS. Is it really that hard for certain people? Can't they just do it for the sick of a good future? 

Secondly, the tones that people use frustrates me, i don't know if that i am to sensitive or what so ever. But i'll be come a little too emotional about the rise of tones in a person voice. If you are unhappy vent your anger  on something else. squeeze or do whatever things but never ever vent it on a human. It is never a nice thing to do. You temper have never been good to start with. When you are frustrated i am frustrated as well. This is how human reacts. 

Thirdly, i think i suck. 

Okay, i am not really in a good mood today. Oh well, i have to deal with it myself. 

Let loose

Sometimes I think that I need to learn how to let go. Like literally let go of some stuff in life. If not, i think life is hard to lead. Very , extremely. I don't know if I am able to survive the next 4 days without throwing any tantrum but I'll try. I'll try . I'll try . I'll damn try.

Insanity

My indulgence for bananas. My gosh. Banana is just so tasty. Chocolate banana muffins, banana cornflakes, hot banana chocolate , banana , banana and banana.

1 banana
2 banana
3 banana
4
5 banana
6 banana
Many many more. :D

Just a little trust

A day out with popo today. My gosh man. He is sucha gay. Scared of heights scared of this and that. How is he gonna survive his NS days ? I think he'll faint everyday. Hahas. He is a joke of the day man.

Have been blabbering about relationship love and everything with popo the whole afternoon. We talk about the past and the present . And how love have change us so much. It's just amazing. We have grown up so much. Being in love isnt that bad after all.

Popp, I'm just really hoping things will turn out well. :]


Accompanied dear at the library, waiting for him to finish up his oh-so-hard project work. Hahas. He feel so shitty about this whole project. What I can do now is only pray hard that he'll do well for his PW. Oh please do well. For all your other subjects as well. I don't want you to leave for Australia yet. :( I'll be sad. Treated him for dinner kind of like spent time with him for mooncake festival. I'll just have to treasure the time I have with him. Although we had a little tiff at home, but oh well, I love him so much.

He is so damn tired that he should have already faint now at home.

Rest well. :]

Today went rather peacefully. :]

Bad habits.

He gave me a fright when i bite him. He raised his voice. That's sad. 

From now on, i'll probably just stay far away from him as i can. 

Cannot be such a bothersome friend anymore man. 

Life sucks.

Yea, i cannot really go out till im recovered.

I appreciate much if my friends come over and spent time with me :D

Chest inflammation causing my fever not going down and of course, breathing problems. :(

Worse still adding on to the pain,i have throat infection i have totally no voice left to project. :(

Life sucks when you dont look after yourself.

I wanna enjoy my holiday man. :(

IT's OVER

This group of people kickass man. hahas. 

Yup,studio project have finally come to an end. It'll like to me, i personally think that all our efforts paid off la. We shed tears but was overcome by laughter. :] Its the people around us that make things so much easier. 

Watch smurfs with timo. :] It was awesome. BUT, i lost my work. 

Studio project week three

I'm tired. Who don't?
My english oral is over. :] That's something to be happy about. One burden of O's gone. But i still have two major ones to worry about. Im hoping to get at least a B4. I WILL DO MY BEST. :] Hopefully reading books and magazines and newspaper will help with my papers. And of course i HAVE been speaking English. I love speaking english (Y) I wanna have my own accent yo. HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, teacher's day is coming up soon. And imma think i am going back to my secondary school to visit. :] For the first time, after leaving that school for almost a year, i am going back as an EX-student. :] Kidda excited. :]  Hopefully my dearest will be able to go with me too. :] But, i guess, he'll be going back to his too.  I am gonna bake muffins for my teachers. Hopefully i wont poison them >3 heh.

Studio project wasnt that fantastic after all. Because i suck at photoshop. SUCK so badly. :( i needa read up a lot on photoshop man. It's hard if i dont even know my basic. LEE XIAO HUI  you better buck up.

All the best to my coursemates as well. I realise the only reason why i still thinking that this course is bearable is because of my awesome IXD 4. <3 i love all of them man.EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. :] I feel so blessed.

frustration

Huh ?

What the hell is love?

Progress?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Was still doing a further research on my work. CAMERA BABY! BRING IT ON BABY~ <3

Hello.

Here i am so weak and fragile. It's like once you touch me, i'll break into many pieces. Many many pieces. Its been 4 days, and i'm still not recovering. My heart is driving me really crazy, along with my cough flu sore throat and fever i have become even more crazy.

When i'm sick i'm restricted to things i want to do. I have to stay home all day, tolerate the loud irritating drilling noises outside the window. Sigh, can't they give my ear a break? It's giving me really bad headache. I want to do my work but once i start, my fever went up as well. It sucks. Life really sucks when i am sick.

This month is gonna be a horrible month for me. After this week will be my studio project on going for 3 weeks. As well as my English O'lvl oral; which i didn't even prepare at all. Am i gonna die? August really sucks.

One more thing that i'm really very sad about, i didnt manage to pass my interview to the next round for SU junior committee. I've been wanting to be part of them, but now ive failed. You know how sad i was? I was utterly disappointed with myself. VERY. EXTREMELY. But what to do? Probably im not fated to do well for anything.

I just wanna rest in peace.

Appreciate

I don't know why but i feel so weird the whole night. I have this very weird feeling that i'm gonna die anytime sooner. But, hey, i should have expect that to happen. I'm ain't a healthy girl to start with. But who cares? As long as i know i have been leading my life happy, i think everything is worthwhile. I have told my love ones how much i love them, And to me, the most important thing now before one dies is to appreciate. Appreciate every person that comes into our life and of course appreciate the time. God gave us oxygen for a reason, he want us to live our life and fullfill what we wanna do. I do have many many thing i have yet to try and do. I will try my best to treasure my oxygen. :]

One more thing, i love you so much boy. 

Keep smiling.

Angina angina, are you really in my heart?

Anyway, decided to start afresh. Start all over again.
Life isn't that bad after all. It is also fair.
When i do something bad, i'll have bad things in return.
So i decided to do something good instead.

From now on lee xiao hui is gonna:
> So throwing her stupid tantrum
> stop flaring
> Stop being so stupid
> more hardworking
> kind
> Thoughtful
> Help as much as i can for the people
> Treasure every second of life
> Love my boyfriend
> Love my family
> BE HAPPY FOREVER
> cry if i want to though.

Yea, thats all i think. :]
When you think that life is great for moment treasure it.

Im in school writing this.

You don't understand me.
When i needed you so damn badly, you wasn't there.
When i want some comfort, you talk likewise.
When you are suppose to be studying, you wrote nonsense stuff on facebook.
How good are you?

Yes, you are sad as well.
Are you really sad?
No.

I am not the girl for you.
You need someone funny.
Someone that can understand you.
Someone smart enough to understand what you are saying.
Someone who can laugh at your jokes

Probably, maybe im not the one.

Trust & believe

Cried so damn badly today. I was thinking, thinking and thinking. Kept thinking. Shall we just be together for a year and break up the next? Will it be better? I was afraid i will have difficulties letting you go when you have to go further your studies overseas. Will you come back? 3 years sounds short but many things can happen within this 3 years.  Many. A lot. 

But the moment you hug me tight and asked me to trust and believe you, i was relieved. A huge sigh of relieved. So i'll just treasure my every single day with you from now on. In fact, i have treasured every single day since the day we got together.  I just love you so much dear. 

.....................................................

I've learnt that, a long relationship doesn't means it's loving. 

Always make me mind go wild.

YOU always make me think...

Why am i like this?
Why am i so freaking sensitive?
Why do i always ALWAYS put high hopes on you?
Why do i always feel so hurt for the little actions that you do?

Should i give myself a break?
Should i be single ?
Should i give up ?
Should i let go?

I'm a stupid girl , why me?
MANY girls are way much better than me, so why me?

But always, all this questions are covered by one sentence...
I LOVE YOU.
a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot.
So even if you disappoint me, i will forget about it.

Heart is burning.

A broken heart. 

A weak heart.

A stupid heart.

A stubborn heart.

A idiotic heart. 

A jealous heart.

A bloody heart.

A red heart.

A turning black heart.

A rotting heart.

A empty heart.

A burning heart ...

Life

This is your life.
Do what you love, and do it often.
If you don't like something, change it.
If you don't like your job, quit.
If you don't have enough time, stop watching tv.
If you are looking for the love of your life, stop;
They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.
Stop over analyzing, life is simple.
All the emotions are beautiful.
When you eat, appreciate every last bite.
Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences.
Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.
Travel often; Getting lost will help you find yourself.
Some opportunities only come once, seize them.
Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating.
Life is short.
Live your dream and wear your passion.

My heart hurts.

Friends where have you been?

See? This is the outcome. From the 11 people become only the 5 of us. Where have the rest go to? L A Z Y. Giving excuses. Not answering their call. Or best still, dont want to see one of your fellow friends face. That sucks you know. Realu. It SUCKS. I miss you guys but you guys are not putting in the effort to meet up. Why?

More than love

I love you.

I realised there is a strong bond between us that is unbreakable.

That's also the reason why, when we quarrel we'll always end up having a stronger relationship.

And hopefully, slowly, i'll open up to you.

It's hard, but i'm trying my best too.

Its your love that make me wanna stay strong and move on with life.

Yes, thank you so much. 

I still wanna sing

I dont give a damn about what others say anymore.

I love to sing. 

I just want to sing as ugly as possible.

I suck, so what?

I quit singing.

People wants me dead because i can't sing.
How pathetic is that?
There are many great voices in soundcard.
But, so what?
I hate it when you people are all so arrogant and despite people with your so called ridiculous voices.
I think few of the members singings were great, why pull them down?
You know, i dont mind if that few lot of you gave me all this critics.
But, stop at me, why still continue shooting the rest?
HELLOO ? WE ARE ALL FRESHIES. I'm YOUR AGE too.
You are NOT MY SENIORS.
All those things that you guys said was not human at all.
I hate that group i was in.

You guys make me think that singing was hell.
Make me think that singing was the most scariest thing in the world.
YES, I AM SCARED.
GO AHEAD AND LOOK DOWN ON ME.

Want me dead? Yes, i will.

Monday Blues.

Yup. I dont feel good today, because i have only done half of my pile of homework. And today Mr carlo's gave us more to do. :( I hate it. Because my drawing skills are not improving at all. But sigh, what to do. I HAVE TO WORKHARDER. I'm happy that i've got a B+ for 2 assignments. :] Its a good grade already.  I will push myself even more to do even better. I have to do better to get into a university. MY AIM IS TO FINISH MY EDUCATION. :D My dearest, i'll catch up with you i tell you! :( You better not dump me. HUMPH.

Concentration

Yes , i'm have gone bonkers doing all my assignments.
Me being so restless at home, after finishing one i start to walk around and than this process continues.
Sigh, hope i wish the time can stop just for me to finish up all my work.
Mr carlos work is a bomb already.
Ms Wen lei's work i have not even touched.
Mdm Chua's work, have not meet up with my group mates yet.
Mr TSS, GOSH , HE REJECT MY WORK! :( I have to redo it again. Actually everybody's work got rejected. Sigh. And he gave us a new assignment to do. :( My previous one only 3/4 done. :(
Mr raymond's work. my god, i dont even know how to sketch that 40 pictures out. D:

TIMOTHY WANG, D: D: D: WOYAOSILE.

What i need now seriously is to sit and DO MY WORK.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR

Boring leh your face. Hahas.

I hope you like the songs i sang.

Yup , today i decided to wake up 5:30am in the morning just to sent my dearest boyfriend to school. It's his birthday today. So i thought companion will be a good gift. But along the way to school, some unhappiness happen, i apologise for that, i was really grouchy and immature. That i can admit. I felt really bad for it. That was the reason why i kept apologizing. Yup , its your birthday today. I went high and low searching for a right present for you. Went all around the places to get card materials. The process of making the card was not easy too. D: I'm so sorry for the ugly card. I'm sorry if you did not enjoy your day today. I'll promise i'll make it a better one next year. :] If ever we can last long la. Because i know, you truely really want your friends to celebrare with you , recieve more presents and everything. I know you want it. :] Your 18 birthday will be AWESOME. I promise.This is my first time celebrating your birthday with you leh. I feel so lost, i wanted to make it a good one, but i realise, i was so timid. I was afraid that you will not like this and that to happen thats why i did not make it big. IDC for nexr year already! It might be my last year celebrating with you next year. D: So...ya... I'm so sorry for the rashes you have too. D: Shouldn't have treated you to macs. Sorry. Im sucha lousy girlfriend. Couldn't even celebrate well with her boyfriend.I'm sorry.

I'll live long no matter what, you are my main source of motivation. WORLD GREATEST BOYFRIEND. Take good care.


Love,
XHismyname

Sorry

" The photo is silly, but who cares, i love it somehow. "

I've been acting really weirdly this few days. Not opening up to anyone. And that makes me really emo. And when i'm emo-ing i dont feel like talking. I DONT WANNA BE LIKE THAT. I want to talk about anything to him, or rather everything, but sometimes, things are not meant to be told. Sigh , see ? Now even my post dont make sense. But hey, hello blogger, its been along time since is blog a post. I just came down here to rant. I disappointed dear today. Was suprised when he said he was frustrated. But this time round, the reason is, me. Really felt bad, but his actions, just cannot stop me from thinking.

I love you, but .. can i trust you? I don't wanna get hurt again. Because it hurts. Blindly loving someone aint good at all.

I'm talking nonsense.

Worse.

 Jason, thank you for coming to the study room today. Appreciate your companion a lot. I was really really not in a very good mood. Thank you for letting me watch all those history that i didnt know about, i was shocked at first, but that make me think how easily one can kill. Life is just so fragile. Very. And of course, thank your oh so sweet puppy love~ hahas. :D Interesting.

Yes, indeed i actually wanted a macbook, but when i see da jie's face when i said i have decided on macbook, my heart pain. I did not like that sad expression you have. So, i change my mind. I decided to get lenovo instead. That time when i was deciding on my laptop, the atmosphere wasnt nice at all. I felt like crying , not over the laptop but over my character. I was happy when da jie say she was proud of me. That was the thing that i have always long to hear from my family members. I was happy. I paid for my own laptop. yes i did. I felt so much better, and then when we had a family high tea, Er jie said things like, aiya that money also not hers, also using mummy nets card to buy one. Always rely on mummy. Of course she happy la. I don't know why when i hear that, yes that, i cannot take  it but cry.  I held on held on and held on, after high tea, my tears burst. DaJie ask me why, i said friends problem. In true fact , no. To me, I want to learn how to grow up. I am already trying my best not rely on my mother anymore. I paid for the laptop, its with my own nets card my own hard earn money. I did not rely on my mother for that. I WANT TO GROW UP. I AM. I DONT WANT TO BE A BURDEN. Everything today, make me feel so stupid so useless sucha burden.

Timothy wang, the reason why i have been so hot tempered this few days is because i sincerely wanted you to give up on me. Poly mates told me that its easy to let a guy give up you, be a bitch , and he'll definitely give up. I am trying to be sucha a bitch already. I DID.. I THINK I AM ONE. I tried so hard , and i failed. Because i love you too much. Too much till even if i die, i dont want you to die along with me. You know how sad that is ? I want you to be still breathing after i die. That's my death wish.


Whenever i see you , my sadness was turned into happiness immediately. 

B&J BFF anyone?

Tuition tuition and more tuition. Practice makes perfect you know. :] Girls, all you need to do now is to concentrate, look at the question, concentrate, find all the many formulas you can think of and SOLVE. :] Don't put my effort to waste okay. No more failing of Emaths. NO MORE, MUST PASS! D: 

YES! AND YES ! Went to eat ice cream with TIMOTHY WANG. :D Worthwhile. His a workaholic not a shopaholic, therefore we wont stay in a shopping center for long. Awww. :P joking. As long as you are around, time pass by super fast. AND I STILL THINK YOU SHOULD SAY HELLO TO CHEEKUEN! :( Who knows, maybe sparkles might happen again between you two. :] If that happens, i'll give you my honest and truthful wishing. :] seriously. 

But , hey ! i'll live as long as i can. :D hahas. I LOVE YOU. 

Swallow anger into happiness.

These week was a meaningful week for me. I've learn to change. I don't flare, i forgive and i forget. I don't know what's wrong with me.But ever since i went to the doctor, my brain went haywire. 

There are many things i have yet to figure out. 

Pasttimes

I'll always remember , how you deliver breakfast by roller blading from your house all the way to lakeside. When you got all that painful blisters on your legs, my heart ache. 

I'll always remember the times when you are always there to pick me up from work. 

I'll always remember, how you took care of me when i'm really very ill.

I'll always remember, how you stood by my side when i needed you.

I'll always remember, how you brought shoes for me to change when my shoes tore.

I'll always remember, how anxious you was when i'm injured or hurt.

I'll always remember, how hurt you was when i ask for a breakup.

I'll always remember how hard you have changed to become stronger.

I'll always remember how you put in so much effort into making a gift for me all though sewing is so hard.

I'll always remember how you try to make me happy whenever i'm sad.

I'll always remember the little cake you bought on my birthday.

I'll always remember the large card with small words that you have given me.

I'll always remember your serious face.

I'll always remember the fierce photoframe that you have given me.

I'll always remember the few times that we nearly break up.

I'll always remember the time when you when shanghai and have sucky connection, but still manage to skype and you still manage to hear my voice. That period of time was bad. But we manage to survive through.

I'll always  remember the times when you are in Australia, net was expensive and how i have ignored you because of my results. Facebook keep us connected. That was a torturous week for me too. 

I'll always remember the 4 letters you have written for me with seashells in it. I was really very touched. And of course your days of diary. It's just so touching for me. Trannies in thailand days. 

I'll always remember the first time you treat me to ice cream.

I'll always remember how happy you was when you saw the " NO, IS HARD TO SAY" . Jumping crazily on my bed. I missed that feeling so much. It's always stuck in my brain.

I'll always remember the first time you confessed, your tomato face. 

I'll always remember the times when  we both cycle and roller blade together. It was fun. :] because it's with you.

I'll always remember running with you, doing all those weird little stretches with you. but i had fun. As  usual , because it's you.

I'll always remember the first time you kissed me. 

I'll always remember the first time you piggyback me.

I'll always remember the first time we held hands.

I'll always remember the times when you sneak out of house just to come for a sleepover at my place. How you sleep so soundly on my bed, while i stop and stare. Twice already huh? Is there anymore? :]

I'll always remember how you get jealous over everything.

I'll always remember how i first saw you eat and think that you look like a mouse.

I'll always remember how you drag me all the way to kfc to meet toky for the first time.

I'll always remember how anxious you was when i didnt answer you call when the first time i was with toky. You really panick. I was really surprised. 

I'll always remember the times when we study together in the study room.

I'll always remember how you appeared on our march babies birthday celebration. You giving that 11 roses and telling me what it means. And giving me that bin. Yes, that moment i felt like crying. hahas.But yea, it's touchy. ~ You really did come. From then on, i decided that i will not let you go. Never. 

I'll always remember how you said the meaning of 11 roses, you were shy and tomatoes came out. That was cute. :] 

There are so many memories, its just come to me all of a sudden. It just come.

I am so lucky to have you. Really, i did not regret and will not regret because to me, you are perfect. :]

I love you.

 

Live.Love.Laugh

A song of love.

Hey dear, just to let you know, whenever you are angry, i'll simply just keep quiet and hug you. Whenever you are sad, i'll just give you a peck on your cheek. Whenever you are happy, i'll share the joy. Whenever you are stress, i'll be your stressball. hahas. SQUEEZE ME all you want. ^^

I'm so glad to have known you. These 9 months of knowing you have been really amazing. Your lame jokes and funny character,  irritates me but still,  i have no idea why i still love you so much. WHY AH?  

Please, learn to treasure your family members. They are the one that are gonna be there for throughout your life not your friends but your family. Teach your brother, love your father and respect your mother. I believe all the small actions done will be seen and appreciated. Why not give it a try? .

It's just a dedication.

Dear brother, i am not as stupid as you think i am. I know how it feels like to be dump by your love one and going for another. It's hard to forget that pain, but you know, as days goes by and when it is the right time, god will let you meet the right girl. :]  I hate it when you always do silly things to cover your sadness.It's sad. Deleting her photos don't work, thats why i choose to keep it. But you still insist, the images are still stuck in your brain, its not fully 'deleted' yet huh ? :/ May you be truly happy again okay? Today was awesome. Nice to be back to the old times in school. Thank you for your star. :] Have a safe trip to Malaysia. :]

Dear chicken, it's not true that people only likes skinny people. You don't have to be skinny to be popular, you just have to be yourself. That's what all friends are looking for. Cutting and having suicidal thoughts doesn't help to solve the problem at all. It's just an excuse for you to run away from all the problems.And it's not that you lack of friends, it's just that you didn't realize your surrounding friends are worried for you, care for you, loves you. Why not put in more effort to realize and appreciate? Love yourself girl.

I have no idea why, i know they won't be reading this, but it kind of hurt me to see people like that. It's bad. :/
Sigh, all my emoing again. *hides in one corner reflects*

End of march start of april.

 

This year march have been quite fruitful to me. Met up with many old friends. Elora, Qin Ping, Kieran, See yin and even Jason phua. It's awesome. It's been 4 years since i met them. Strong friendships will never die. :] I have been trying to make every single day and hours fruitful. So i exercise, i meet up with friends, i catch up with my maths and english, go for classes, giving tuitions, waiting at a bus stop, traveling around, finding new routes,spending time with broccoli, playing my guitar, singing my lungs off, going to a doctor, eating ridiculous medicine, putting on ear drops, nose bleed, ear bleed, throat swollen, nose swollen, gum pain, gastric pain, movie marathon, making chocolates for whites, registration for my new school, register for GCE OLEVEL english, spending lots of money on food, good time with my family on my birthday, did lots of covers with my friends: Venus, Amanda, Xiu Qi, Kieran, Phang phang.:] I'm glad they like the experience of a cover. :] 

Okay, i know i sprouting lots of nonsense here. It's all because i'm really bored. Like super bored. Im still super at this hour. Yea, i have 15 hours of sleep! :X So now im all gaga. How sad. 

April have come, and i start my april by pranking my friends. :] First Weishan than amanda. whose next? 

It'll be an exciting month for me. Where i'm going to have my orientation . Where i get to see my new schoolmates and of course really get used to my new school. And gonna get a new lappy , get to start afresh in a whole new study environment. 

I'm skipping night class next week because of my orientation. I hope it'll be a good one, if not i'll lose hope in this course. Like seriously. Please be a good one. :x Dear new mates, please be nice. :] If you aint nice, i dont know what to do either. I'll be suppaaa terrified i guess?

April april, please be a good month.. Hopefully noone fool me today. :D

I love you dear.

A kiss of life

I feel so awesome today. Although my heart hurt my ear is deaf, I still feel so freaking awesome! :] Every single time when I see his face, my pain are all gone. :]

Night classes is starting soon. And I think its gonna suck.

smiles

Great time with a turtle, Rul, Kah Fai, Toky and of course that smarty little boy tim. :]
I love this feeling of gathering. It was really fantastic! :]
Though turtle's kite only manage to survive for a few minutes, it was still fun for her.
Turtle are nice creatures to bully, REALLY nice. Live long. hahas.

Saw a machine called "KOOPON" and i was fascinated. HEH.
It gives me free coupons for food just by giving my phone number. :]
TING TING , save $$ ! :]
We all had LJS at a good price.
BUT ... after eating, i have a after effect. MY EAR HURTS DAMN BADLY.
SO BADLY till it spoils my mood. :/

Went jogging with Phang, and i cannot feel my legs after that.
He taught me how to run the right way and i thought that it was super tiring instead of more relaxing.
I went home alone and ya, i thought i was going to die before reaching home.
My ear is numb, my legs are numb and i'm giddy.
BLAH BLAH BLAH sorry blog, i just wanna rant whenever i'm here. :]
Thanks so much for being so awesome.


Just by seeing you makes my day perfectly. :]
I love you.

Hot n cold

Went shopping with Rul! And he bought a bag from river island. :]



It's a very unique bag! Hopefully it can last throughout to worth the price! Thanks for the companion at the bus stop. Rebecca black is booms! Fridaaaayyyyyyyyyyy *pinch nose*

Broccoli, thanks for warming up my hand, frankly speaking it melts my heart. I love you and that's all I really know.

KOI

For the first time in my life, i screamed after taking a sip of K-O-I. :D

I feel so contented. I have been craving for Koi the whole entire day. So i decided to accompany KC to his clients place, all the way down at Yishun. Trained down to AMK , no queue because its raining so it's AWESOME! :D i feel so so so so so so happy. :] Imma happy girl. Having a good broccoli, good friends and of course good family members, im super urber lucky and feel so the happiness. Had a great  time with KC. Talk to him about , LIFE. :D His still as Gay as ever, but hey, you have changed to become a better MAN. :]  I love the changing process. When i see you 1 year down the road, i believe, i'll see your 4 pacs or even 6! No more taxi for you boy. hahas. See you later on. 

Broccoli finally finished chinese compo. hahas. His just so adorable. 

Happiness is only real when shared. <3

Time spent wisely.

Yup, imma gonna spent my time more wisely now. :]

Must do list :

- Catch up with all my lovely friends.
( Meet, meet, meet and of course meet la.)
- Play well for my bar chords.
( To play better songs)
- English TYS D:
( Get a least a B3)
- Emaths TYS for my student. D:
( Rachel, you better score well)
- OHMYBROCCOLI<3
(Meet up as much as possible :D)
- OHMYFAMILY

I'm excited for my orientation though! :]
Coming soon.

what is life all about?

I'll never understand life.
It can be complicated, it can be sophisticated, it can sad, it can be happy, it can cause a trauma, it can just end like that. Life to me is just being able to breathe every single day. But I just dont freaking get why is it so fragile? Is like whatever we consume, will never be healthy.Even over dosed of fruits will cause cancer. Do exercise will gives us heart attack. So actually eating more fruits and vegetables AND exercising doesn't really mean that we are gonna be fine. Sigh, whatever we do kills that's life.

Life is an investment.

Sleep deprived. That's him.
Sleeping is the most heaven thing for most of us.
Sigh, ive no idea what im writing about.
I'm sleeping already
Goodnight.

Sad white valentines

Just to buy for valentines and you went to sleep. I nearly died yesterday. If I didn't hang on, I wouldn't be feeling sad right now. How I wish I was dead yesterday.

2nd chances.

" Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. " - The last song

Switchfoot - Only hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

And I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my apathy
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back 

Simple, sweet birthday.

Timothy Wang . Ngeow Xiu Qi . Venus Lee Yan.

Thank you for making my birthday even more memorable.

<3

What it means.

 <3

Even if the road of life is hard, i have friends to pull me up. :]

Imma sucha good ducky mama right? it's been 4 years... 

Though flowers is aint my type, but i love the person who gave it to me. FULLSTOP. :]

it's a good pre-celebration.

So ... that means a lonely birthday is here?

My heart needs to talk.