Im in school writing this.

You don't understand me.
When i needed you so damn badly, you wasn't there.
When i want some comfort, you talk likewise.
When you are suppose to be studying, you wrote nonsense stuff on facebook.
How good are you?

Yes, you are sad as well.
Are you really sad?
No.

I am not the girl for you.
You need someone funny.
Someone that can understand you.
Someone smart enough to understand what you are saying.
Someone who can laugh at your jokes

Probably, maybe im not the one.

Trust & believe

Cried so damn badly today. I was thinking, thinking and thinking. Kept thinking. Shall we just be together for a year and break up the next? Will it be better? I was afraid i will have difficulties letting you go when you have to go further your studies overseas. Will you come back? 3 years sounds short but many things can happen within this 3 years.  Many. A lot. 

But the moment you hug me tight and asked me to trust and believe you, i was relieved. A huge sigh of relieved. So i'll just treasure my every single day with you from now on. In fact, i have treasured every single day since the day we got together.  I just love you so much dear. 

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I've learnt that, a long relationship doesn't means it's loving. 

Always make me mind go wild.

YOU always make me think...

Why am i like this?
Why am i so freaking sensitive?
Why do i always ALWAYS put high hopes on you?
Why do i always feel so hurt for the little actions that you do?

Should i give myself a break?
Should i be single ?
Should i give up ?
Should i let go?

I'm a stupid girl , why me?
MANY girls are way much better than me, so why me?

But always, all this questions are covered by one sentence...
I LOVE YOU.
a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot.
So even if you disappoint me, i will forget about it.

Heart is burning.

A broken heart. 

A weak heart.

A stupid heart.

A stubborn heart.

A idiotic heart. 

A jealous heart.

A bloody heart.

A red heart.

A turning black heart.

A rotting heart.

A empty heart.

A burning heart ...

Life

This is your life.
Do what you love, and do it often.
If you don't like something, change it.
If you don't like your job, quit.
If you don't have enough time, stop watching tv.
If you are looking for the love of your life, stop;
They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.
Stop over analyzing, life is simple.
All the emotions are beautiful.
When you eat, appreciate every last bite.
Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences.
Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.
Travel often; Getting lost will help you find yourself.
Some opportunities only come once, seize them.
Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating.
Life is short.
Live your dream and wear your passion.

My heart hurts.

Friends where have you been?

See? This is the outcome. From the 11 people become only the 5 of us. Where have the rest go to? L A Z Y. Giving excuses. Not answering their call. Or best still, dont want to see one of your fellow friends face. That sucks you know. Realu. It SUCKS. I miss you guys but you guys are not putting in the effort to meet up. Why?

More than love

I love you.

I realised there is a strong bond between us that is unbreakable.

That's also the reason why, when we quarrel we'll always end up having a stronger relationship.

And hopefully, slowly, i'll open up to you.

It's hard, but i'm trying my best too.

Its your love that make me wanna stay strong and move on with life.

Yes, thank you so much.