My heart needs to talk.

F-E-N-C-I-N-G

I LOVE YOU TIMOTHY WANG! YOU FINALLY GOT INTO FENCING. :D
Awesomeness.

Pay attention!

DESIREE , I have decided to call you by your english name. 

To remind myself to speak more english. I have been reading and reading and reading and reading. My mind is already going gaga over those GAGA words. What , " Subterfuge " , " hemorrhage " ... Ah ha, i so understand all these words. I search through the dictionary to find out words that i don't understand whenever i encounter words that i don't know in a storybook. That probably what i am doing now. I cannot complaint, because it isn't bad learning all these words after all. It's fun. To actually know what it meant after that. I love the dictionary, i love my books and of course, i have to write more post to improve on my english isn't it? No more short forms, no more singlish. Now, the only thing i can do to help is to focus and concentrate on my english, pass it and carry on with life.Just have to tell myself, English is not that bad after all. It's fun. I watched american shows now a days just to listen to their pronunciation. Ah, whatever it is, if you are pissed reading my ''off'' english then don't read this blog anymore. HOHOS. I wonder who ever invades this place?

TURTLE HITS 17!

Ya , stupid turtle, happy birthday.
Your birthday was my bad day.
But still, i love the feeling of gathering.
I didn't know just by sitting down with each other and chilled out will be sucha a nice feeling.
Yesterday birthday celebration was kidda awesome for me.
And turtle, i forgot to pass you your cards.

Yesterday ... I decided on doing things that i didnt think i'll do.
It's outrageous.
It brings me back to the past.
Frankly speaking, i still hate it.
But come on, i still have to face it.

And yesterday ... make me realized ...
I did something really wrong.
I shouldn't have done it from the start.
Bringing my friends into deep shit.
I hate this.

My existence at home is not needed.
Everything have been decided for me.
What for decided for myself?
How lucky is that isn't it?
I hate it.


Eye infection, i hate you too.

Short cut

A new hair cut a new school life a change of image. Everyone needs to go through change in order to move forward.

Today, I felt that i have went back to my childhood times, remember how wild i was whenever I am at the playground. Eating ice pop to cool down. Licking those 1 bucks cube ice cream. Eating all over my face. It happened to me when i was a kid and know I witness it on others. I enjoyed that flashback. :]

I have learnt to treasure. Right?

ROCK-ER-TEER

Thank you so much for the day Ting.

It was hard for you today. When i saw your tears, my heart was in pain. Just remember that as long as you are still able to breathe, your life still have to go on. You still have to face whatever comes to you. FACE IT,DEAL WITH IT, BRING IT DOWN! Fight for yourself. No matter how bad the course is, just go ahead and learn it and do well. Learning is never ending. :] Have a positive mindset and yup, true enough probably you'll be able to be the top-scholar in your course. I believe you'll be able to do well. Don't let bastards like 'you-know-who' bring you down. Tell me frankly, why cry, why feel hurt because of ONE pathetic person? WHY? He dont even give a damn about thatt feelings. Girl, move on.

But also sorry Ting for today, i was very distracted with my phone today.I was waiting for someone's OG dinner to end so that i know that i ain't disturbing. But after a long whole tiring day, i receive nothing from someone. I was disappointed actually, but come to think about it, it's just my fault. If i stop thinking so much, i will not be so paranoid. So insecure.  

Hey

You know how hard it is to not go crazy over you? Because it's impossible.

Friends reunion

It's quite awesome to be able to meet them again. Thank you so much for today.

it's just me

Time is precious for everyone.
We might have little time spent with our beloved friends.
But thinking back about it, meeting once awhile isnt a bad idea after all? :]

How does a kiss feels like?

 

it's crazy

I fainted today, yes i did.
I went for a long run for straight 3 hours from 10am -1pm.
My heart was like jumping out of my ribcage, the beating was crazy.
But the thought in my mind, just make me feel like running even more.
My vision went black, my pace was slower, i couldn't see a thing.
I was horrified. I thought that i was going blind.
The next thing i know, i was weak, i fell towards the grass.
The moment i woke up, an aunty was busy fanning away her newspaper at me.
Talking to me, asking me to wake up.
I cried.I have no idea why, but i was crying.
Aunty told me that she just came about 5 minutes ago.
I assured her i was okay and she left.
I was found only after 45 minutes, how pathetic was that.
I tried standing up and i failed, i cannot feel my legs at all.
So i stood down on the soft grass, searching for my phone.
Saw Tim's message and i was worried. He got himself injured.
I pulled myself up, drag my stupid legs to sit on the benches.
The distance was not far, i fell down again, and my head hit the lamppost.
There goes my head. I seat down and tim called.
I tried picking up the phone and i failed.
I kept dropping the phone, i cannot feel my hands, my head is in pain.
I take 15 full minutes to reply to that short message of his.

That point of time, i think that life seriously sucks.
I miss you, i really do.