i miss my past so much

When he is gone, i feel that my life have become so much more different. 

It's like it when to another world of mine that i didn't knew that it exist.

Yes, breaking up may feel painful but, come on life still have to go on, i need oxygen to live, not him.

Is it true?  But sometimes i wonder. Will we ever be back together again?

Or rather, will we be best friends after breaking up? 

To me, best friends is a yes, to him absolutely not. 

It is not easy trying to forget that i no longer have to meet you i no longer have to do certain things.

Like , loving you. 

My hear feels empty man. People asking me " Hey, you okay? " I hate it. 

LIKE HELL DO I LOOK OKAY? 

Oh, dont wanna talk about it anymore. 

Yes i miss my past. My primary school , that damn ugly girl that was me and now, the still even more ugly girl. 17 years , ive seen a lot. I've been through a lot. I seen a lot of people. Walk pass a lot of people. hmmm... I need a time machine...

Mimanchi

Extrodinary

Life is just frustrating. It may comes interesting but it's is really frustrating. 

Firstly, to me time is really very important. No matter is it for studies , family time , love time or whatever time. We HAVE to learn how to organise it well. I'm trying to pick that up. But my body is just trying to do the opposite. But im bloody hell trying my best to do my work , why can't you? At least i wont get distracted by facebook and youtube. I know what is FOCUS. FOCUS. Is it really that hard for certain people? Can't they just do it for the sick of a good future? 

Secondly, the tones that people use frustrates me, i don't know if that i am to sensitive or what so ever. But i'll be come a little too emotional about the rise of tones in a person voice. If you are unhappy vent your anger  on something else. squeeze or do whatever things but never ever vent it on a human. It is never a nice thing to do. You temper have never been good to start with. When you are frustrated i am frustrated as well. This is how human reacts. 

Thirdly, i think i suck. 

Okay, i am not really in a good mood today. Oh well, i have to deal with it myself. 

Let loose

Sometimes I think that I need to learn how to let go. Like literally let go of some stuff in life. If not, i think life is hard to lead. Very , extremely. I don't know if I am able to survive the next 4 days without throwing any tantrum but I'll try. I'll try . I'll try . I'll damn try.

Insanity

My indulgence for bananas. My gosh. Banana is just so tasty. Chocolate banana muffins, banana cornflakes, hot banana chocolate , banana , banana and banana.

1 banana
2 banana
3 banana
4
5 banana
6 banana
Many many more. :D

Just a little trust

A day out with popo today. My gosh man. He is sucha gay. Scared of heights scared of this and that. How is he gonna survive his NS days ? I think he'll faint everyday. Hahas. He is a joke of the day man.

Have been blabbering about relationship love and everything with popo the whole afternoon. We talk about the past and the present . And how love have change us so much. It's just amazing. We have grown up so much. Being in love isnt that bad after all.

Popp, I'm just really hoping things will turn out well. :]


Accompanied dear at the library, waiting for him to finish up his oh-so-hard project work. Hahas. He feel so shitty about this whole project. What I can do now is only pray hard that he'll do well for his PW. Oh please do well. For all your other subjects as well. I don't want you to leave for Australia yet. :( I'll be sad. Treated him for dinner kind of like spent time with him for mooncake festival. I'll just have to treasure the time I have with him. Although we had a little tiff at home, but oh well, I love him so much.

He is so damn tired that he should have already faint now at home.

Rest well. :]

Today went rather peacefully. :]

Bad habits.

He gave me a fright when i bite him. He raised his voice. That's sad. 

From now on, i'll probably just stay far away from him as i can. 

Cannot be such a bothersome friend anymore man. 

Life sucks.

Yea, i cannot really go out till im recovered.

I appreciate much if my friends come over and spent time with me :D

Chest inflammation causing my fever not going down and of course, breathing problems. :(

Worse still adding on to the pain,i have throat infection i have totally no voice left to project. :(

Life sucks when you dont look after yourself.

I wanna enjoy my holiday man. :(