Appreciate

I don't know why but i feel so weird the whole night. I have this very weird feeling that i'm gonna die anytime sooner. But, hey, i should have expect that to happen. I'm ain't a healthy girl to start with. But who cares? As long as i know i have been leading my life happy, i think everything is worthwhile. I have told my love ones how much i love them, And to me, the most important thing now before one dies is to appreciate. Appreciate every person that comes into our life and of course appreciate the time. God gave us oxygen for a reason, he want us to live our life and fullfill what we wanna do. I do have many many thing i have yet to try and do. I will try my best to treasure my oxygen. :]

One more thing, i love you so much boy. 

Keep smiling.

Angina angina, are you really in my heart?

Anyway, decided to start afresh. Start all over again.
Life isn't that bad after all. It is also fair.
When i do something bad, i'll have bad things in return.
So i decided to do something good instead.

From now on lee xiao hui is gonna:
> So throwing her stupid tantrum
> stop flaring
> Stop being so stupid
> more hardworking
> kind
> Thoughtful
> Help as much as i can for the people
> Treasure every second of life
> Love my boyfriend
> Love my family
> BE HAPPY FOREVER
> cry if i want to though.

Yea, thats all i think. :]
When you think that life is great for moment treasure it.

Im in school writing this.

You don't understand me.
When i needed you so damn badly, you wasn't there.
When i want some comfort, you talk likewise.
When you are suppose to be studying, you wrote nonsense stuff on facebook.
How good are you?

Yes, you are sad as well.
Are you really sad?
No.

I am not the girl for you.
You need someone funny.
Someone that can understand you.
Someone smart enough to understand what you are saying.
Someone who can laugh at your jokes

Probably, maybe im not the one.

Trust & believe

Cried so damn badly today. I was thinking, thinking and thinking. Kept thinking. Shall we just be together for a year and break up the next? Will it be better? I was afraid i will have difficulties letting you go when you have to go further your studies overseas. Will you come back? 3 years sounds short but many things can happen within this 3 years.  Many. A lot. 

But the moment you hug me tight and asked me to trust and believe you, i was relieved. A huge sigh of relieved. So i'll just treasure my every single day with you from now on. In fact, i have treasured every single day since the day we got together.  I just love you so much dear. 

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I've learnt that, a long relationship doesn't means it's loving. 

Always make me mind go wild.

YOU always make me think...

Why am i like this?
Why am i so freaking sensitive?
Why do i always ALWAYS put high hopes on you?
Why do i always feel so hurt for the little actions that you do?

Should i give myself a break?
Should i be single ?
Should i give up ?
Should i let go?

I'm a stupid girl , why me?
MANY girls are way much better than me, so why me?

But always, all this questions are covered by one sentence...
I LOVE YOU.
a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot.
So even if you disappoint me, i will forget about it.

Heart is burning.

A broken heart. 

A weak heart.

A stupid heart.

A stubborn heart.

A idiotic heart. 

A jealous heart.

A bloody heart.

A red heart.

A turning black heart.

A rotting heart.

A empty heart.

A burning heart ...

Life

This is your life.
Do what you love, and do it often.
If you don't like something, change it.
If you don't like your job, quit.
If you don't have enough time, stop watching tv.
If you are looking for the love of your life, stop;
They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.
Stop over analyzing, life is simple.
All the emotions are beautiful.
When you eat, appreciate every last bite.
Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences.
Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.
Travel often; Getting lost will help you find yourself.
Some opportunities only come once, seize them.
Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating.
Life is short.
Live your dream and wear your passion.

My heart hurts.